I’ve started this blog because I’m fortunate enough to be going back to school and doing a paper on how literature influences us. I wanted a place that I could get imput from other twilight lovers. I’m hoping people will be honest and clean and be able to share a part of themselves through the medium of these beloved characters.
Unlike most twilight fans. I am a 34 year old mom of four: two boys, two girls, ranging in age from almost 10 to 2. A friend of mine loaned me twilight back in January of this year. She didn’t know I was a vampire fan, but thought I’d enjoy the love story. When my husband took the two older kids to Disney World in the middle of February it seemed like my chance to get some reading done. I read through that Twilight Saturday and Sunday. Like so many twilight fans I couldn’t put the books down. I called my friend for the next books but she was out of town. I called a young woman that I knew had the books and borrowed book two and three from her.
I couldn’t believe book two. I just cried my eyes out. You see Bella reminded me so much of me in highschool: a loner, clumsy, old for my age… and afraid I wasn’t not good enough. And my husband is my Edward. There’s a part of me that doesn’t feel worthy of him and is afraid he’ll be taken from me one way or the other. We still drive each other crazy sometimes, like all couples. But when we were dating I felt very much like Bella did about my own “Edward”. So I had to skip through most of New Moon looking for Edward’s name anywhere to see if he came back. I mean how could he leave her? He just had to come back! So after all the tears and finding out he did come back I quickly finished Eclipse.
Boy did I have a hard time with how Bella played those boys! I’m rereading the books (AGAIN) this time with my husband. He’s so sweet to endulge me. The books have been more than just entertaining for me. They’ve been like a time machine/therapy session. I was able to travel back and remember some things I’d forgetten about who I was and wanted to be. Time had taken it’s tolI… I have defintely gone through the motions over the last several years. I was able to come back from reading these books and implement some of the youthfulness that Stephenie portrays so well through Bellas voice. I am grateful to her for helping me remember who I wanted to be.
